i'm a wuss. the strike is officially over.

was scared into rebelling against my principles by my CA grades. i got 72.9%, which under normal circumstances, would have given me an A-. not too bad for a module i totally cannot relate to, policy. yeech. but no, *gasp*, because this is a frickin' honours class, the caps are THAT much higher, already the highest mark so far, is 82, the lowest is 68, and the above average hover above 75, while the rest of us occupy the lower rugs of 70 - 74. so my damn 72.9 might be a B. or WORSE, a B-, cos there are only SO MANY As, A-s, B+s, and Bs NUS can give out right?!

right. bullshit.

my grades shouldn't be relative to my cohort! if i produce A- work i SHOULD get A- godammit. hell, i don't even need A-, just gimme a B+ average to maintain my upper. i don't want no bell curve. argh! so yes, this could very well screw up my upper. and i NEED my upper so i can become a corporate slave and fulfill my destiny as a nameless clog amongst the vast machineries that is the TNC/MNC, whatever.

I MUST FULFILL MY DESTINY!!

I HAVE BOUGHT INTO THE MEANINGLESS TRAPPINGS OF CAPITALISM AND MATERIALISM AND GODAMMIT, I WANT THAT LIFE.

so erm, i guess it'll be a very gruelling two days? two and a half days then, of work. *twiddles thumbs* but its 3 already and i've made a new resolution to keep to slightly more normal hours so this means i have to sleep. and wake up tomorrow bright and early to erm do work (yeah riiiight). when will i ever learn? just hope i can still pull it off, even if i scrap through by the skin of my teeth. *crosses fingers* its all my bad karma, i swear. we HAVE to STOP bitching shuyin! but it feels sooooo goooooood... *sighs*

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